Learning patience

After what happened last week I feel....
More submisive then ever. But it feels deferent.

We had many heart to heart talks. Many things
Were said. Things that probably (sadly) would not be shared
Under regular circumstances. Especially from him.

I am hopeful that it will make us stronger; as a couple, as husband and wife, as friends and as a couple in a D/s dynamic.

I can see now, that I wasn't nearly the submisive i thought i was
And did not get what submission truly is.
Just starting to understand that SUBMISSION IS PATIENCE....
I'm not good at being patient.

"When you want something, there is no stopping you" He says.

I need to learn to wait. To wait for Him. To follow Him
And the moment he'll decide to give of his attention to me....
his dominance...
That moment will be overpowering.

For now I'm working to deserve the "kitty" status again...
For now he lovingly calls me "My chaotic creature" ...
(I kinda starting to like it :-) )

from being a kitty to being a Bitch

I don't know if He will ever forgive me...for being such a fucking BITCH.

Loving to be treated in dominance is not like being a good submisive...
I get it....but its to late.

He has been so exhausted from life, from the school, from work...and then he comes home...a place that is suppose to be safe....and there is me - an endless pit of neediness, of accusations.....of nothing 
NOTHING deserving of this Man.

Yesterday he reached a breaking point. By my hands.

He is everything to me. I am so sorry for the way I've been until this point.
He is perfection and i will devote the next, i don't know how much time to try and earn his forgiveness and the rest of my life to become a deserving wife of this Man.

A. if you are reading this.....
I love you

A dirty shower

Finally, after a long week, we had some time to spend with eachother....

Sir joined me in the shower. We spend a long time just
Kissing and caressing eachother.

Sir made me kneel under the water stream 
And pushed his already hard cock deep
In to my mouth throat....
(oh how i love when he does this)

He repeated this shoving motion...
Each time going
Deeper and deeper...I started to gag....
(Sir enjoys watching me gag and choke when he 
Makes me go deepthroat)...

Still holding him inside my mouth,
As Sir started to masturbate....

Soon i felt my mouth being filled with
His hot delicious cum....

just for fun

"Roses are red  

Ice is cold

Get on the bed 

and do   

As you're told..."

Just something i found online that made giggle...:-)

Missing my Sir

For the past week Sir and I have barely seen each other...
Although we slept in the same bed, we saw each other maybe two
hours, tops.

The weekend is here. The only time we have to look forward
for being in each othes presence.....and guess what ?
We are having family spending the night....sigh....

I miss his touch, the spanking, His dominance, I crave for a taste of him....I miss ttwd...

My mouth waters just from imagining his perfect cock close to my lips....

The other day i was folding his tshirt, and i missed him so....i inhaled his smell....

Oh how I LOVE Sirs smell. Its absolutely devine!

Hopefully we‘ll have some time soon to submerge in the beautiful world of ttwd....

Explode

As soon as I opened the shower door,

Sir came up to me, wearing his black jeans and a black t-shirt.

He put his hand gently but meaningfully on the small of my neck and steered 

me to the bedroom, where he got rid of my pink robe and bent me over the bed.

My ass presented to him, he pushed my legs apart and I could feel his hand sliding

over my freshly-shaved-for HIM- pussy...massaging and playing with me to the point

i felt i couldn't take one more second without a release... 

I could hear...yes, HEAR him smile as i was moaning... squeaking....wiggling....

whimpering.....begging of him to let me go.....

Suddenly I feel the swap of his free hand and the stinging burn on my ass...

Then another one...and other one....and...I don't know how many...i just disappeared

in to the world of bliss and sweet pain...

I was dripping wet....still whimpering....

Then he just stopped!...

"Get on the bed"

 I do as I'm told 

He puts his hand on my back and pushes me shoulders down on the bed

and makes sure my knees are apart as far as possible.

He hands me the "magic wand" between my legs, from behind...and sits on bed

next to me watching me....from behind...

"Cum for me"

I press the wand to my clit...I can feel how dripping wet I am....

He puts just one finger inside me and....

I explode...