Ice

I don't know where to start...
So I'll just start whining now...

Vanilla is holding us hostage: No sex, verrrry little kink and definitely no D/s

He has been sick for almost two weeks now. I'm talking about sleepless nights and
a horse amount of all kind of medications.
He is doing better but still is physically weak.
Meanwhile i became the domme...it just happened.......

Now, before that was the period, and we all know what that means: two weeks of bitch fast.
During all that : EXAMS.
So that took some life force from both of us.

Today we had a fight after a "fail" play. Of Course he wasn't on his best game - he IS still recovering, but nooooooo, he thought it would be a good idea to play the role of a dominant. And you know what? This is exactly how it felt - him PLAYING a role and being truly dominant.

It was a totally stupid fight , that started by him asking me "whats wrong? "
Why does he do that?! and how the fuck he always knows?!

Things were said.....

A few hours later he spanked me until....
After about 15 minutes (i don't know actually how much time, but it felt about 15 min)
he went away for a few moments a brought some ice and rubbed it on my ass...
for a moment i thought he was doing it to soothe the pain, but then he cropped me!

It burned like hell!

Suddenly i felt the cane part of the crop (you can see it in my post first time for everything )
I shuddered and tried to wiggle myself away...he just moved it across the tortured skin. it felt very raw.
I heard him chuckle at my attempt to protest.....

Did you enjoy the ice?
Yes...But i thought you brought it to soothe my skin....

No. I knew it will hurt more when I'll use the crop.
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The thing is,  I am feeling totally UNsubmissive.
Have absolutely no idea where to start to try and patch things up... and go back
to that happy place...the D/s place...where D = Him and s = me

.....

Good morning

Come on. Get up!

Can I feel your hand on my ass first ?
(and i turned on my said offering my ass to him)

He smiled...that wicked smile....you know...

S-m-a-c-k....

It has been to long seance i had a good spanking...so naturally i was excited!

S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k ....

Good morning (my name)!

Good morning...
i manage to moan back....

S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k ....

Good morning (my name)!

Good.... morning....

He turnes me on my back, grabs my ankles and hold my legs high.

S-m-a-c-k Good S-m-a-c-k Morning S-m-a-c-k ...

Then he releases my ankles. Opens my legs and takes out his cock.

(What ?! Im still having my period....!)

Please don't take my panties off...(i plead)

Stop topping from the bottom! I know you are on your period!

Starts to spank my pussy with his.... HARD  COCK
Proceeds spanking my ass with his other hand.....


It was SO erotic!!!

Missing my Sir

For the past week Sir and I have barely seen each other...
Although we slept in the same bed, we saw each other maybe two
hours, tops.

The weekend is here. The only time we have to look forward
for being in each othes presence.....and guess what ?
We are having family spending the night....sigh....

I miss his touch, the spanking, His dominance, I crave for a taste of him....I miss ttwd...

My mouth waters just from imagining his perfect cock close to my lips....

The other day i was folding his tshirt, and i missed him so....i inhaled his smell....

Oh how I LOVE Sirs smell. Its absolutely devine!

Hopefully we‘ll have some time soon to submerge in the beautiful world of ttwd....

Explode

As soon as I opened the shower door,

Sir came up to me, wearing his black jeans and a black t-shirt.

He put his hand gently but meaningfully on the small of my neck and steered 

me to the bedroom, where he got rid of my pink robe and bent me over the bed.

My ass presented to him, he pushed my legs apart and I could feel his hand sliding

over my freshly-shaved-for HIM- pussy...massaging and playing with me to the point

i felt i couldn't take one more second without a release... 

I could hear...yes, HEAR him smile as i was moaning... squeaking....wiggling....

whimpering.....begging of him to let me go.....

Suddenly I feel the swap of his free hand and the stinging burn on my ass...

Then another one...and other one....and...I don't know how many...i just disappeared

in to the world of bliss and sweet pain...

I was dripping wet....still whimpering....

Then he just stopped!...

"Get on the bed"

 I do as I'm told 

He puts his hand on my back and pushes me shoulders down on the bed

and makes sure my knees are apart as far as possible.

He hands me the "magic wand" between my legs, from behind...and sits on bed

next to me watching me....from behind...

"Cum for me"

I press the wand to my clit...I can feel how dripping wet I am....

He puts just one finger inside me and....

I explode... 

  

Here goes nothing...

Never in a million years I would have thought to start a blog. let alone one about my personal life. Although I'm an outgoing person, I would never share my personal life with others. Not even a best friend. That was before D/s. 
Now how can I tell someone that I LOVE being submitted to my Husband?
LOVE to be sexually objectified by Him? LOVE being spanked to a point of total bliss?
HOW?! :) 
Okay, I CAN tell....but.... How objective will their reaction be? Or what happens if I'll need an advice or a second opinion or support ?

Now, as we are discovering the magic that is D/s and BDSM, I find myself in need to share converce and maybe even to have an open discussion about TTWD. 


What finally tipped the scale and catalyzed the decision of starting my own blog, happened a few days ago when i posted a comment on a new post by Fiona on her own blog.I didn't realize when i started typing, but before i was done, tears were streaming down my face. It was cathartic.  

So many amazing bloggers, such as Fiona, Sir J (that sadly closed his profile :(  )
and Pearl Necklace (that I've discovered only recently) and many more, that contributes to Sir's and my life by sharing their life.
We are both thankful to all of you!

Please feel Free to comment anywhere, everywhere and anytime on my blog. 
I would really appreciate it. 

So... WELCUOME!   ;)