You know it's been too long when it takes you a few moments to remember the name of your own blog ....
It has been a while since I blogged or even browsed other blogs and I terribly missed it.
I missed my fellow bloggers
I missed blogging
I missed everyone who is still reading my...whatever this is....
But there was not much to write about.
Sadly there hasn't been much kink in our life.
Some rules became routine while other just faded.
Very little sex.
(Okay there was one time with the loOOongest Orgasm ...but i'll live it for another time...)
Currently we are trying to get back to the dynamic.
As usual I was the one to bring the attention to the restraints that needed to be tightened.
We talked over a cup of coffee in a restaurant on the beach.
I was scared to bring up the subject because I didn't want to be a burden to Him.
Don't want to add more worries to His life.
Plus I learned NOT to expect....maybe even not to desire....
You know what I mean?
Just to wait to whatever He would give me....
Could it be that part of my role as His sub is to keep attention to the burner of the dynamic?
Or is it topping from the bottom ?