A while I was desperately looking for a way to stay connected to him, to his Dominance, when we go days without seeing each other. And I found it... Music! Caleb listens to music EVERY chance he gets. He LOVES hard rock/metal/gothic/instrumental....The harder the better. (wink wink) So I presented him this idea....Of him filling my mind and my soul with the music of his choice. He liked the idea and uploaded to my phone beautiful music. The same music he listens to, but he still took under consideration what of his music I might like. So it was more demure...thank god. Now, sometimes we find out that we are actually listening to the same song at the same time. How amazing is that! One of his favorite music bands made a cover for a song by Lana Del Rey. He uploaded her album as well. Now i am a total addict. In my eyes she is an icon of femininity and sexuality with her beautiful 50'/60' cinematic sound, and her haunting beauty and voice. Because Caleb was the one that introduced me to her music, now I deeply associate the words from her songs with Him. With my submission to Him.
"...I need you to come here and save me
I'm your little scarlet, starlet
singing in the garden
Kiss me on my open mouth
Ready for you"
(from: "off to the races")
"..I will love you 'til the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're
Baby can you see through the tears..."
("from: 'blue jeans)
I've cried and rejoiced over the beautiful songs that let me feel close to my amazingly kind Dominant-Husband. Even now, as I write this, I feel overwhelmed by a disbelief that i could be so lucky.