Saturday, October 4, 2014

Special Powers

Years before we met He was in to tantric sex.

The result of this practice gave Him two special powers:

1. After an orgasm, He can just keep going. No "reload" period needed.

This can go on for some time. Usually until He gets enough.

2. He controls the ejaculation. An orgasm with no unwanted "mess".

( Although personally, I prefer the mess, sometimes it comes "handy". *giggle* )

Does your Dominant have any powers you consider to be special ?

Monday, September 22, 2014

Driving me wild

He does this new thing that absolutely drives me wild

I am kneeling on the bed. Knees spread widely apart.
He turns on the hitachi and puts it between my legs.
The position i am in makes my pussy push against the purring vibe.

It feels amazing. And i am already soaking wet.

I am moanin...squealing....whimpering...

He just smiles at me while taking his close off.

It feels like forever until He gets in front of me,
His hard cock so close to my lips...

(Its the most beautiful site : Your Dominants hard cock so close to you face... at tongue reach...
Don't you think ?)

I can feel  His heat...i can smell Him...

My mouth is pussy is throbbing...I am kind of dancing
on the hitachi...

He shoves himself deep into my mouth...and i just go for it....
My moans are now muffled...

(Did I mention how much i LOVE having Him as deep as posible in my throat ?
Its a bit embarrassing to confess...but i love almost choking by his cock...and He loves to watch me struggle...)

His command registers from far away......


But..but..but... its so fucking hard to stop...

I don't want to...!!!!!
(I don't say this of course)

He takes Himself away from my mouth and a whimper...and beg...
The vibe is taunting pussy is now over sensitized....

Please Sir...P-p-please...may i please suck your cock...please....

He doesn't reply...He just puts himself closer to my lips...
almost touching my lips...
I lean forward just a bit...maybe he'll let me just one lick...


Please, Please...Please Sir...just let me lick your cock....

He smiles at me for above...holding his hard cock in one hand and cupping my chin with the other...
forever passes by....


I go for it hungerly....Suck and lick his cock like it's the last time...And it tastes so much....SO MUCH....

He continues this torture for a few more time.
Each time the anticipation is greater.
Each time He lets me and each time He can take it away from me at any second.....

His commands...

I feel like such a pet....

The vibe...

ehi a uhm ehr.... ? 


And oh my gowd....
The orgasm is so fucking intense...

I moan and scream with Him shoved far into my throat....

And he just laughs...


P.s : "ehi a uhm ehr.... ? "
Thats : "May I cum Sir ?" in language known as Cock-moth-deepian

Wednesday, August 6, 2014


 (14:25): Sir, may I please have an orgasm ?

(14:27): Yes, but you have to use the plug as well, and must update me. 

(14:29): Thank you Sir. Update you how?

(14:30): By telling me if you had or hadn't one.
If you won't have one I'll have to punish you.

(15:02): I came three times Sir.

(15:04)Wow. That's very good kitty. You'll get to suck my dick as a reward.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014


I don't know where to start...
So I'll just start whining now...

Vanilla is holding us hostage: No sex, verrrry little kink and definitely no D/s

He has been sick for almost two weeks now. I'm talking about sleepless nights and
a horse amount of all kind of medications.
He is doing better but still is physically weak.
Meanwhile i became the just happened.......

Now, before that was the period, and we all know what that means: two weeks of bitch fast.
During all that : EXAMS.
So that took some life force from both of us.

Today we had a fight after a "fail" play. Of Course he wasn't on his best game - he IS still recovering, but nooooooo, he thought it would be a good idea to play the role of a dominant. And you know what? This is exactly how it felt - him PLAYING a role and being truly dominant.

It was a totally stupid fight , that started by him asking me "whats wrong? "
Why does he do that?! and how the fuck he always knows?!

Things were said.....

A few hours later he spanked me until....
After about 15 minutes (i don't know actually how much time, but it felt about 15 min)
he went away for a few moments a brought some ice and rubbed it on my ass...
for a moment i thought he was doing it to soothe the pain, but then he cropped me!

It burned like hell!

Suddenly i felt the cane part of the crop (you can see it in my post first time for everything )
I shuddered and tried to wiggle myself away...he just moved it across the tortured skin. it felt very raw.
I heard him chuckle at my attempt to protest.....

Did you enjoy the ice?
Yes...But i thought you brought it to soothe my skin....

No. I knew it will hurt more when I'll use the crop.

The thing is,  I am feeling totally UNsubmissive.
Have absolutely no idea where to start to try and patch things up... and go back
to that happy place...the D/s place...where D = Him and s = me


Saturday, July 19, 2014


It's that special time of the month..PMS is here.

When i came home He gave me a big hug and asked me how was my day.

I told him that i was bitchi to everyone around me :

Well, you can be a bitch outside the home as much as you wish, but when you come home to you owner (oh my...that word...) you better be good!

With this very firm words, he brought his neck closer to my lips...
And i instinctively licked him...

It was a much needed reminder in this vanilla period we are going through. 


Saturday, June 14, 2014

What's wrong with this picture?

So there we were...

Snuggling on the couch....

Looking for new toys to buy...

When, this "particular" add made an appearance...

Wait for it......
Here it is:

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Staying connected via music

A while I was desperately looking for a way to stay connected to him, to his Dominance, 
when we go days without seeing each other.

And I found it... Music!

Caleb listens to music EVERY chance he gets. 
He LOVES hard rock/metal/gothic/instrumental....The harder the better. (wink wink)

So I presented him this idea....Of him filling my mind and my soul with the music of his choice.
He liked the idea and uploaded to my phone beautiful music. 

The same music he listens to, but he still took under consideration what of his
music I might like. So it was more demure...thank god.

Now, sometimes we find out that we are actually listening to the same song at the same time. 
How amazing is that! 

One of his favorite music bands made a cover for a song by Lana Del Rey.
He uploaded her album as well.

Now i am a total addict.
In my eyes she is an icon of femininity and sexuality with her beautiful 50'/60' cinematic sound, and her haunting beauty and voice.

Because Caleb was the one that introduced me to her music, 
now I deeply associate the words from her songs with Him. 
With my submission to Him.

"...I need you to come here and save me
I'm your little scarlet, starlet singing in the garden
Kiss me on my open mouth

Ready for you"

(from: "off to the races")

"..I will love you 'til the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine

Baby can you see through the tears..."

("from: 'blue jeans)

I've cried and rejoiced over the beautiful songs that let me feel close to my amazingly kind Dominant-Husband.

Even now, as I write this, I feel overwhelmed by a disbelief that i could be so lucky.

Saturday, May 31, 2014

First time for everything

I'm still not allowed to call him 'Sir'. 
There for, until I'l be able to do so, 
I'll reference him here as "Caleb"

Other then not allowing me to refer to him as Sir,
there were no other punishments ever.
Just disappointed looks now and then.

I asked him a few times if he is ever going to punish me.
To which he replied that he wasn't comfortable punishing me.

Well, I guess this morning he finally felt comfortable enough.
He told me something, and in return I nodded instead
of saying "Yes Caleb"....

Then he very calmly said : You do realize that I need to punish you right now, don't you?
Needles to say it was a rhetorical question, to which of course I replied "Yes Caleb".

He ordered me to stand on my hands and knees on the bed, and then went away to the
other room to bring the crop.

Now instead of cropping my ass he gave me a caning.
It hurt and burn like hell...
And I tried my best NOT to enjoy it.

This is the implement that has left beautiful markings

Thursday, May 29, 2014

A new rule

Before we got in to the D/s dynamic I didn't used to care
about whatever I was wearing around the house.
As long as it was clean and cute.

Now, I wear empire waisted dresses at knee high or short tunics.

So last week, due to some circumstances
I went commando for a few days.

This inspired a new rule:
Panties off when at home and if outside together.
When He comes home I am to provide proof
of obedience.


Friday, May 23, 2014

Learning Patience part II

You can read about part I here : Learning Patience

It has been a month since things fell apart.
You see, what happened was brought by a big deal of miscommunication. And we are both at fault.

He is not a man who is big on sharing whatever goes inside his mind.
I'm on the other hand, have no fucking problem expressing ( see also: shouting, screaming, yelling) whatever bothers me. And i dont release control that easily. Although i thought i did.

What happened was kinda a blessing in disguise:
The cards fell open on the table.
We learned where each of us stood.
What were the expectations for the futer.

Now, He feels more comfortable with dominating me ( even gets creative, which melts me away)
I feel more submisive which i think is directly linked to him opening up. There for i can trust him know what i mean ?

I don't have the earge to demand dominance...because now i know that he does and he will.

I just need to learn to be even more patient and less demanding.
To learn to release.

When HE DECIDES that i deserve of his dominance it feels so climatic, exiting, magical, erotic, demanding, powerful, overpowering...........(Just got horny writing this)

He said: I never stopped and never will stop bein your Dominant!

Friday, May 9, 2014

Good morning

Come on. Get up!

Can I feel your hand on my ass first ?
(and i turned on my said offering my ass to him)

He smiled...that wicked know...


It has been to long seance i had a good naturally i was excited!

S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k ....

Good morning (my name)!

Good morning...
i manage to moan back....

S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k ....

Good morning (my name)!

Good.... morning....

He turnes me on my back, grabs my ankles and hold my legs high.

S-m-a-c-k Good S-m-a-c-k Morning S-m-a-c-k ...

Then he releases my ankles. Opens my legs and takes out his cock.

(What ?! Im still having my period....!)

Please don't take my panties off...(i plead)

Stop topping from the bottom! I know you are on your period!

Starts to spank my pussy with his.... HARD  COCK
Proceeds spanking my ass with his other hand.....

It was SO erotic!!!

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

The Liebster Award

Thanks to two lovely ladies: The lovely Fiona and The lovely Pearl Necklace, I've been nominated for the 
Liebster Award!

Here are the rules: 
1. Thank the person who nominated you and post a link to their blog on your blog.

2. Display the award on your blog-- by including it in your post and / or displaying it using a "widget" or "gadget".
3. Answer 11 questions about yourself which will be provided to you by the person who nominated you.
4. Provide 11 random facts about yourself.
5. Nominate 5-11 blogs you feel deserve this award, who have less than 1000 followers. (Note that you can ask the blog owner this since not all blogs display the widget that lets readers know this information.
6. Create a new list of questions for the blogger to answer.
7. List these rules on your post. Once you have written and published it, you then have to.
8. Inform people/blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster Award and provide a link for them to your post so they can learn about it (they might not have heard of it!)

Answers to the questions Pearl asked:
1. Where were you the first time you and your Husband/Wife kissed?
I came down the stears to meat his and he just grabbed me 

2. What does your Husband/Wife do first when waking up (if you're not sure...ask!!)?
Putting on his t-shirt and shorts... (I asked  :)  ) 

3. Favorite place to touch your Husband/Wife?
Hmmm....I just LOVE the feel of the strong lines of his face 

4. The last place you touched your Husband/Wife?
When there is no time even for a hug we hold hands

5. Campfire or fireplace?
I would say fireplace...Its so intimate and romantic

6. Biggest sex blooper you and your Husband/Wife have had?
As we were going at it missionary style, our foreheads met with full force...ouch just thinking about it. 

7. Favorite sexy toy?
only ONE?!....

8. Do you worry (what worries you) about those around you knowing about your relationship dynamic?
Yes and no

9. One hidden talent?
I am VERY good at anything creative

10. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
Physically: my nose
Personally:Learn to receive life as it comes

11. One sex related item you would NOT want to live without? (Besides your partner)
The magic wand of course 

Answers to the questions Fiona asked:  
1. What's you'r favorite erotic book?
The only erotic book i have ever read is 50, 50 shades 

2. Does anyone in vanilla life know about your kink?
Yes. Two people.

3. What's your favorite sex toy?
Can't chose just one. They all have their purpose

4. What's your favorite color?
I don't have one favorite color, but I love the combination with black and purple. I think its very sensual

5. Do you prefer cold weather or hot weather?
I prefer a colder weather and the variety of cloth and accessories that come with

6. What piece of furniture in your house do you love the most?
The BED. Growing up i have never had a normal child's room and later slept in the leaving room for a couple of years. So having a bed is a treat for me.

7. What's your favorite movie?
Inception comes to mind

8. Has anyone other than your significant other ever spanked you?

9. Do you consider yourself handy?
I do! 

10. What would be your family and friends reaction to finding out you're kinky?
If talking only about the dynamic: Knowing me. my friend and family would probably say 
"Finally! A man that can make her shut-up!"

11. What's your favorite pair of shoes?
There isn't one pair but i LOVE boots.

11 random facts about me:
1. Long dark brown hair which my husband loves to pet and play with. And of course It comes handy in TTWD  
2. Was born in a different country 
3. LOVE vanilla ice-cream
4. HATE mathematics 
5. Don't have a drivers license 
6. If i see you biting your nails your probably will get a s-m-a-c-k on your hand.No matter how old you are!
7. I get infuriated with people who chew with their mouths open 
8. Really good at arts and crafts
9. I have a VERY large collection of nail polish
10. Since we entered the dynamic, I feel like I must ask to masturbate although he never told me to do so.
11. I don't drink alcohol for health reasons

And now for The Nominees...
I haven't been following the blog land long enough but the bloggers that
I was lucky enough to encounter, introduced me to the richness of the beautiful world of  D/s :

Here are my questions for the nominees :
1.Is there a kind of a sexy clothing you prefer?
2.Do you have any tattoos?
3.Do you prefer cats or dogs?
4.Is it your first kinky dynamic relationship?
5.What inspires you to blog?
6.Are there any toys you would like to try that you haven't yet?
7.Do you have any rules in your dynamic?
9.What is the most sexy thing your significant other said to you lately?
10.How did your dynamic changed your life for the better?
11.What kind of music do you like?

Thank you girls for including me in this!  

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Learning patience

After what happened last week I feel....
More submisive then ever. But it feels deferent.

We had many heart to heart talks. Many things
Were said. Things that probably (sadly) would not be shared
Under regular circumstances. Especially from him.

I am hopeful that it will make us stronger; as a couple, as husband and wife, as friends and as a couple in a D/s dynamic.

I can see now, that I wasn't nearly the submisive i thought i was
And did not get what submission truly is.
Just starting to understand that SUBMISSION IS PATIENCE....
I'm not good at being patient.

"When you want something, there is no stopping you" He says.

I need to learn to wait. To wait for Him. To follow Him
And the moment he'll decide to give of his attention to me....
his dominance...
That moment will be overpowering.

For now I'm working to deserve the "kitty" status again...
For now he lovingly calls me "My chaotic creature" ...
(I kinda starting to like it :-) )

Sunday, April 13, 2014

from being a kitty to being a Bitch

I don't know if He will ever forgive me...for being such a fucking BITCH.

Loving to be treated in dominance is not like being a good submisive...
I get it....but its to late.

He has been so exhausted from life, from the school, from work...and then he comes home...a place that is suppose to be safe....and there is me - an endless pit of neediness, of accusations.....of nothing 
NOTHING deserving of this Man.

Yesterday he reached a breaking point. By my hands.

He is everything to me. I am so sorry for the way I've been until this point.
He is perfection and i will devote the next, i don't know how much time to try and earn his forgiveness and the rest of my life to become a deserving wife of this Man.

A. if you are reading this.....
I love you

Monday, April 7, 2014

A dirty shower

Finally, after a long week, we had some time to spend with eachother....

Sir joined me in the shower. We spend a long time just

Kissing and caressing eachother.

Sir made me kneel under the water stream 

And pushed his already hard cock deep
In to my mouth throat....
(oh how i love when he does this)

He repeated this shoving motion...

Each time going
Deeper and deeper...I started to gag....
(Sir enjoys watching me gag and choke when he 
Makes me go deepthroat)...

Still holding him inside my mouth,

As Sir started to masturbate....

Soon i felt my mouth being filled with

His hot delicious cum....

just for fun

"Roses are red  

Ice is cold

Get on the bed 

and do   

As you're told..."

Just something i found online that made giggle...:-)

Friday, April 4, 2014

Missing my Sir

For the past week Sir and I have barely seen each other...
Although we slept in the same bed, we saw each other maybe two
hours, tops.

The weekend is here. The only time we have to look forward
for being in each othes presence.....and guess what ?
We are having family spending the night....sigh....

I miss his touch, the spanking, His dominance, I crave for a taste of him....I miss ttwd...

My mouth waters just from imagining his perfect cock close to my lips....

The other day i was folding his tshirt, and i missed him so....i inhaled his smell....

Oh how I LOVE Sirs smell. Its absolutely devine!

Hopefully we‘ll have some time soon to submerge in the beautiful world of ttwd....

Tuesday, April 1, 2014


As soon as I opened the shower door,
Sir came up to me, wearing his black jeans and a black t-shirt.

He put his hand gently but meaningfully on the small of my neck and steered 
me to the bedroom, where he got rid of my pink robe and bent me over the bed.

My ass presented to him, he pushed my legs apart and I could feel his hand sliding
over my freshly-shaved-for HIM- pussy...massaging and playing with me to the point
i felt i couldn't take one more second without a release... 

I could hear...yes, HEAR him smile as i was moaning... squeaking....wiggling....
whimpering.....begging of him to let me go.....

Suddenly I feel the swap of his free hand and the stinging burn on my ass...
Then another one...and other one....and...I don't know how many...i just disappeared
in to the world of bliss and sweet pain...

I was dripping wet....still whimpering....

Then he just stopped!...

"Get on the bed"
 I do as I'm told 

He puts his hand on my back and pushes me shoulders down on the bed
and makes sure my knees are apart as far as possible.

He hands me the "magic wand" between my legs, from behind...and sits on bed
next to me watching me....from behind...

"Cum for me"

I press the wand to my clit...I can feel how dripping wet I am....
He puts just one finger inside me and....

I explode... 

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Here goes nothing...

Never in a million years I would have thought to start a blog. let alone one about my personal life. Although I'm an outgoing person, I would never share my personal life with others. Not even a best friend. That was before D/s. 
Now how can I tell someone that I LOVE being submitted to my Husband?
LOVE to be sexually objectified by Him? LOVE being spanked to a point of total bliss?
HOW?! :) 
Okay, I CAN tell....but.... How objective will their reaction be? Or what happens if I'll need an advice or a second opinion or support ?

Now, as we are discovering the magic that is D/s and BDSM, I find myself in need to share converce and maybe even to have an open discussion about TTWD. 

What finally tipped the scale and catalyzed the decision of starting my own blog, happened a few days ago when i posted a comment on a new post by Fiona on her own blog.I didn't realize when i started typing, but before i was done, tears were streaming down my face. It was cathartic.  

So many amazing bloggers, such as Fiona, Sir J (that sadly closed his profile :(  )
and Pearl Necklace (that I've discovered only recently) and many more, that contributes to Sir's and my life by sharing their life.
We are both thankful to all of you!

Please feel Free to comment anywhere, everywhere and anytime on my blog. 
I would really appreciate it. 

So... WELCUOME!   ;)