Q&A

So I hear that March is traditionally a month of q&a . You ask I/We answer. Therefore don't be shy and feel free to ask anything and everything (non-outing of course) .

Looking forward for your Q's!

P.s : This Is my first time so please be gentle  ;)

A Grey Cloud

My mind is scattered lately... like i lost the ability to think sharply...
Having difficulties finding the right words...
Lonely. Yet i am not alone.
He is here.
Melancholy, yes?

Find myself searching online images that remind me of D/s
They don't even have to be explicit...they don't always have sexual innuendos...
It can be just a lace or tall trees, leather, furniture with a damask pattern...
Other times it's kneeling, worshiping...yet being cherished and protected...
  
Black and white images are particularly calming.
They, or its more the emotions they inflict make me feel
Safe...like a protective grey cloud.

But i must confess...
There is something about a state of melancholy that i like...
Its surprisingly - familiar.

Can't really explain it, but this is when the submissive in me becomes
Even more alive...Needing of pain, being used, claimed and protected...

  
 
 

Owner

It's that special time of the month..PMS is here.

When i came home He gave me a big hug and asked me how was my day.

I told him that i was bitchi to everyone around me :

Well, you can be a bitch outside the home as much as you wish, but when you come home to you owner (oh my...that word...) you better be good!

With this very firm words, he brought his neck closer to my lips...

And i instinctively licked him...

It was a much needed reminder in this vanilla period we are going through. 

 

   

First time for everything

I'm still not allowed to call him 'Sir'. 
There for, until I'l be able to do so, 
I'll reference him here as "Caleb"
_______________________________

Other then not allowing me to refer to him as Sir,
there were no other punishments ever.
Just disappointed looks now and then.

I asked him a few times if he is ever going to punish me.
To which he replied that he wasn't comfortable punishing me.

Well, I guess this morning he finally felt comfortable enough.
He told me something, and in return I nodded instead
of saying "Yes Caleb"....

Then he very calmly said : You do realize that I need to punish you right now, don't you?
Needles to say it was a rhetorical question, to which of course I replied "Yes Caleb".

He ordered me to stand on my hands and knees on the bed, and then went away to the
other room to bring the crop.

Now instead of cropping my ass he gave me a caning.
It hurt and burn like hell...
And I tried my best NOT to enjoy it.
 

This is the implement that has left beautiful markings

Good morning

Come on. Get up!

Can I feel your hand on my ass first ?
(and i turned on my said offering my ass to him)

He smiled...that wicked smile....you know...

S-m-a-c-k....

It has been to long seance i had a good spanking...so naturally i was excited!

S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k ....

Good morning (my name)!

Good morning...
i manage to moan back....

S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k S-m-a-c-k ....

Good morning (my name)!

Good.... morning....

He turnes me on my back, grabs my ankles and hold my legs high.

S-m-a-c-k Good S-m-a-c-k Morning S-m-a-c-k ...

Then he releases my ankles. Opens my legs and takes out his cock.

(What ?! Im still having my period....!)

Please don't take my panties off...(i plead)

Stop topping from the bottom! I know you are on your period!

Starts to spank my pussy with his.... HARD  COCK
Proceeds spanking my ass with his other hand.....


It was SO erotic!!!

Learning patience

After what happened last week I feel....
More submisive then ever. But it feels deferent.

We had many heart to heart talks. Many things
Were said. Things that probably (sadly) would not be shared
Under regular circumstances. Especially from him.

I am hopeful that it will make us stronger; as a couple, as husband and wife, as friends and as a couple in a D/s dynamic.

I can see now, that I wasn't nearly the submisive i thought i was
And did not get what submission truly is.
Just starting to understand that SUBMISSION IS PATIENCE....
I'm not good at being patient.

"When you want something, there is no stopping you" He says.

I need to learn to wait. To wait for Him. To follow Him
And the moment he'll decide to give of his attention to me....
his dominance...
That moment will be overpowering.

For now I'm working to deserve the "kitty" status again...
For now he lovingly calls me "My chaotic creature" ...
(I kinda starting to like it :-) )

Explode

As soon as I opened the shower door,

Sir came up to me, wearing his black jeans and a black t-shirt.

He put his hand gently but meaningfully on the small of my neck and steered 

me to the bedroom, where he got rid of my pink robe and bent me over the bed.

My ass presented to him, he pushed my legs apart and I could feel his hand sliding

over my freshly-shaved-for HIM- pussy...massaging and playing with me to the point

i felt i couldn't take one more second without a release... 

I could hear...yes, HEAR him smile as i was moaning... squeaking....wiggling....

whimpering.....begging of him to let me go.....

Suddenly I feel the swap of his free hand and the stinging burn on my ass...

Then another one...and other one....and...I don't know how many...i just disappeared

in to the world of bliss and sweet pain...

I was dripping wet....still whimpering....

Then he just stopped!...

"Get on the bed"

 I do as I'm told 

He puts his hand on my back and pushes me shoulders down on the bed

and makes sure my knees are apart as far as possible.

He hands me the "magic wand" between my legs, from behind...and sits on bed

next to me watching me....from behind...

"Cum for me"

I press the wand to my clit...I can feel how dripping wet I am....

He puts just one finger inside me and....

I explode... 

  

Here goes nothing...

Never in a million years I would have thought to start a blog. let alone one about my personal life. Although I'm an outgoing person, I would never share my personal life with others. Not even a best friend. That was before D/s. 
Now how can I tell someone that I LOVE being submitted to my Husband?
LOVE to be sexually objectified by Him? LOVE being spanked to a point of total bliss?
HOW?! :) 
Okay, I CAN tell....but.... How objective will their reaction be? Or what happens if I'll need an advice or a second opinion or support ?

Now, as we are discovering the magic that is D/s and BDSM, I find myself in need to share converce and maybe even to have an open discussion about TTWD. 


What finally tipped the scale and catalyzed the decision of starting my own blog, happened a few days ago when i posted a comment on a new post by Fiona on her own blog.I didn't realize when i started typing, but before i was done, tears were streaming down my face. It was cathartic.  

So many amazing bloggers, such as Fiona, Sir J (that sadly closed his profile :(  )
and Pearl Necklace (that I've discovered only recently) and many more, that contributes to Sir's and my life by sharing their life.
We are both thankful to all of you!

Please feel Free to comment anywhere, everywhere and anytime on my blog. 
I would really appreciate it. 

So... WELCUOME!   ;)