Learning patience

After what happened last week I feel....
More submisive then ever. But it feels deferent.

We had many heart to heart talks. Many things
Were said. Things that probably (sadly) would not be shared
Under regular circumstances. Especially from him.

I am hopeful that it will make us stronger; as a couple, as husband and wife, as friends and as a couple in a D/s dynamic.

I can see now, that I wasn't nearly the submisive i thought i was
And did not get what submission truly is.
Just starting to understand that SUBMISSION IS PATIENCE....
I'm not good at being patient.

"When you want something, there is no stopping you" He says.

I need to learn to wait. To wait for Him. To follow Him
And the moment he'll decide to give of his attention to me....
his dominance...
That moment will be overpowering.

For now I'm working to deserve the "kitty" status again...
For now he lovingly calls me "My chaotic creature" ...
(I kinda starting to like it :-) )